Poem...

I held on to you, I screamed for you, I cried for you.
But you were not you all along.
You lied to me, you shied to me, you never told me who you were.
I never knew you all along.
I dreamed for you, I pleaded to you, I begged you to be who you weren't.
I hated you.
I learned from you, I grew from you, I gained my strength from what you have done.
I can't thank you for that but then again I can.
I can forgive you and release you, I can pray for you.
I can't forget, I can't erase the pain, but I can grow.
I can't love you, I can't want you or need you, but again I say I can pray.
I can forgive, I can live.
I can smile today because I am free.
Free of the hate, the darkness, the self loathing.
I am free of the world you and I once lived in.
You don't grip me, you only trip me.
You don't bind me, you only remind me.
You only live for me, but he died for me!